Friday, April 1, 2016

Paving New Amsterdam Streets:

Life gets more exciting each day, as my world takes a turn; suddenly everything has changed, again–new routines, friends, faces, conversations, and places. As spring emerges, Amsterdam has awoken, renewed and refreshed. The city’s flowers are being trimmed and streets are being repaved with new bricks, here and there–all in preparation for the new season, and the abundance of tourists that will only crescendo as the city ushers itself toward the summer months. The city is alive with a steady energy that’s only just beginning to hum, alongside the early season flowers, and tree buds in efflorescence. My thoughts are consumed between the histories of museum collecting (of paintings), the collaborations between two seventeenth century Dutch painters, paintings in general, the creation of frameworks, as for essays, alongside, thinking about all what there is to do. Luckily, the most difficult portion of my studies have now passed–meaning I have all my time to devote to these new faces, spaces, and places I’ve been immersing myself within. The ivy on my balcony has been replanted; nourished. Having taking a turn for this worse this past winter–new plants were added, new soil surrounding them, has again turned my balcony into a jungle–an elevated urban paradise. As I march forward I question who I want to be and how much I want to be it. How much am I willing to give up; to gamble upon; the risk; to take a chance; to have perseverance in making sure dreams are expanded, not shrunken? Who do I want to be as I enter my next decade; one more stone of my foundation set in place; with which foundation will I continue building upon? And if I one foundation no longer seems appropriate or sturdy to continue building upon, I will have to admit that. How much do I want to be, who I want to be? Is there a value that can be placed on the self? And, how can that self know, which self is the right self to work toward, to so become. Thing is, I know who I want to be, and will become. I value my future self; who I may want to be; and through hard choices will become.